One and a half month have passed since I wrote last, quite a bit have happened since then. First I guess I perhaps should mention that I went down to Amsterdam the 14:th to 15:th of July. Went down for Sensation Black 2007 but also had the bonus of meeting one of the people Iâ€™ve talked for a long time but never met in real life. Sensation was very nice, not really my type of music, but a really nice experience that Iâ€™ll remember for a long time to come, definitely going down next year too but will aim for going to white instead and not black, or perhaps to Antwerp instead of Amsterdam. As I went alone without any friends or so (everyone I asked â€œwantedâ€ to but then couldnâ€™t afford it) I kind of moved around alone at first, but up by the stage I found some nice Netherlanders, especially I girl from Rotterdam that I â€œtalkedâ€ with most. Talking isnâ€™t really doable except for short moments of screaming.
All well, home from Amsterdam I came. The day before I went there, my sister, her boyfriend, her boyfriendâ€™s brother and mother had come to visit. The mother doesnâ€™t speak any language that I understand. Only ones who understand her fully is her sons, but my sister understand her a bit, more cause of an agreed way to communicate from living together than an actual language. So when I got back home it was a lot to do with them all. I usually see my sister twice a year, a longer period in the summer then a shorter one for Christmas. I at least had quite busy day to day life there, studying a bit and getting to know the family a bit. Didnâ€™t go out all that much since weather was pretty crappy.
In middle of august I got my 5:th assignment for the summer course Iâ€™m taking. A very badly planned course that have been very much delayed. Not until a few days ago I got the last assignment and the course should already be finished by now. The 5:th one was messy though, very fuzzy instructions and even fuzzier guidance. Got it ready yesterday at least after spending more hours than intended with it. Donâ€™t know if itâ€™s okay yet as it havenâ€™t been graded. Itâ€™s at least what I spent most of my awake time with the last week or something.
The last week hasnâ€™t been too much free awake time though, as I started working Monday. Itâ€™s a training period first and the last day of training is today. Itâ€™s at the evening but since I live in a village communications isnâ€™t at best. So takes an additional 2 or so hours just for traveling. Itâ€™s however quite alright as I walk from train to work and back, which at least give me some exercise in time that I couldnâ€™t used for anything else either way. Work also got a bit fuzzy instructions, perhaps itâ€™s just me thatâ€™s stupid. Think Iâ€™ll get rather bored of that work quite quickly, but at least itâ€™s some money on the side of the studies. The studies I start tomorrow, full time at site. I havenâ€™t had those kind of studies since my life became a mess 4 years ago. I really hope that history wonâ€™t repeat itself, feels that too much time already have been spent on that.
And now, something for someone special.
but for real I actually think that you like me quite much even though you donâ€™t seem to show that latelyâ€¦ you have been a bit withdrawn the last few days.. a bit absent-mindedâ€¦ but it will probably pass.. or at least I hope so.. although, you said a while ago that you will be gone for a while because you had become too attached to me.. perhaps you have noticed that again.. hard to know.. you donâ€™t always tell all that much.. but if pressured a bit you usually tell some at least.. wondering a bit where you are going on friday.. said you will be gone for weeks.. think itâ€™s because of the builders but donâ€™t really know.. and donâ€™t know where youâ€™ll be living during that time either.. am a bit worried for you.. I hope it goes wellâ€¦ will miss you when you are gone though.. I think about you quite often.. how you are doing.. what you are thinking about and what you think.. either way Iâ€™m happy to â€œhaveâ€ you.. feel really good and would hate to loose youâ€¦ so Iâ€™m going to watch myself and be sure not to hurt you so you perhaps realize that Iâ€™m (according to my own very biased view) are not like most other guys.. oh well.. hope that day sometime comes and I really hope that I sometime am actually get to meet you.. would be very nice.. and no.. Iâ€™m not going to translate thisâ€¦
Guess I did translate it after all, oh well….